Why she Tell These 4 Lies About Her Bipolar Disorder

Lie #4: Not telling the whole truth to protect myself

By now, I’ve learned to live with the lies I tell.

My health is my first priority — not telling the whole truth.

Even though I write about my mental illness under my own name, I hold a great many things back from all but a few friends with mood disorders who understand my struggles.

Hopefully, I can keep working as a writer, a field in which my experiences with mental health are an asset rather than a liability. Hopefully stigma against people with mental illness will decline, so that I’d be able to work in a corporate job if I wanted, without my Google results betraying my history of illness.

And maybe, someday, those same internet search outcomes won’t drive away my likely suitors, though I’ve learned to talk about my experience with bipolar on the first date and let what happens happen.

Until then, I’m going to keep covering up certain details of my disease, for the sake of my loved ones, and to protect myself from additional pain.

My health is my first priority — not telling the whole truth.